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Kenwan Obiobi - Student |
This message applies to the whole academy...past students, knights, council members and present. Just everyone.
It is not often that i admit that i am wrong...or have been wrong. My friends, past and present should know this by now. I can be very arrogant...and when i've done something which is obviously wrong...i just can't admit it...and will stick by my guns to the extent of which there is either a huge silence, abuse being thrown at each other...or just ultimately falling out for a very long time. I am writing this now to say that i have been wrong during those past days here at the academy (a year and a half ago to be precise)...and i'm so utterly sorry for everything. I'm sorry for the grief and harm i caused to this special place...and i'm sorry for every single consequence which my actions caused. I lost probably the best mate i ever had because of a game...and because of my actions. This game...this academy...and my stupid, immature, arrogant attitude. There's more i could write about myself here - just to describe the exact extent of my character...but i'm sure everyone already has a clear enough image in their minds of what Kenwan Obiobi is like... It's not just a fact for being 'wrong' about something though. Yes i was very wrong about a lot of things during my previous time here...i wouldn't even listen to ANYBODY about how stupid i am being...UNLESS...it was someone with authority...i.e Virtue...but even so...i gave Buzz a hard time...so i didn't exactly listen to him either...and i just can't say enough how "sorry" i am for the way i treated him. I most certainly can't apologise enough to everyone else though about how sorry i am for the way i treated you all...everyone. My attitude and overall conduct was appauling - the lowest of the low. Whats even more scary is the fact that i knew this...yet never prevailed to change my ways...and just, basically...kept up everyone's noses until, to the extent of getting banned. In some respects, a very minor reason as to my conduct could be inexperience. Inexperience to the whole 'online' scene. I had recently just got broadband and was therefore enjoying the whole 'online' scene. I bought BF2 and joined a clan there...of which i soon left as i didn't want to start paying subscription fee's. I also discovered 'Star Wars Jedi Knight III: Jedi Academy' - courtesy of my best friend at the time...and so, we discovered this 'academy' and i had previously once read about it in PC Gamer magazine...and we both thought it would be cool to sign up...so he did and i followed. Little did i know about how stupid i would be though... Finally, i would like to apologise for interrupting Janus' class - which basically led to my suspension from the academy. It was just typical of me to do such a thing at that time...and i'm just so sorry for just taking it that step too far and for just ruining the whole atmosphere of which every personnel here cherishes and repects. I'm also sorry for returning to the server after my ban...for just causing hell for the staff, forcing them to have to change the passwords. I'm just sorry for wasting everyone's time and i really just can't find the words for how sorry i am for this especially. Words can't define... 
(If hardly any)...i guess a reason behind it all, like i said, was my inexperience to the whole 'online gaming' scene. I was innocent to what to expect, how to react...and how to act and play...with 'humans'...not 'bots'. I created myself my own Virtual 'Comfort Zone'...of which i decided i could use to do whatever means necessary - create arguments, act an idiot, be annoying, immature...you have it. I deserved everything i got thrown at me in return. I deserved to be banned. Basically i just want to ask you all to grant me one final chance. To just let me prove to you all that i have changed - that i'm not the person i used to be. I've had to change in recent months...i'm in a career now...and it's teaching me a lot about myself and about my capabilities...Thats not just the only reason i've changed though. There's been other things happening in my life...private life maybe but still...i've had to adapt and mature to all this. If i could turn back time, i would. I wouldn't have just let go of the many things i had...like my best friend of 6 years...(i think)...I wouldn't have been so STUPID, horrible, self centered and immature. I would have said all of this to everyone long before now...but i feel that this year out of the game has taught me a lot about myself...and it's also made me realise just how special this place is...and that each and everyone of you should feel lucky to be a part of this magical world...because there's nothing quite like it online. I'm sorry for everything and i'm sorry that i can't really explain it any better than this .
Best wishes to you all for 2007 and beyond. - David - (Kenwan Obiobi) This post was edited by Kenwan Obiobi on Jan 03 2007 10:26pm. |
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Senor Hat - Student 
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Quote: /throws a party
/catches the party Welcome back mate  _______________ I have beaten The Internet. The end guy was hard. |
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Kenwan Obiobi - Student |
Thanks  |
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SaZ - Student 
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wb dude 
gl hf _______________ playing jk3 since 30th of january (2005), member since 1st of february. [Unofficial Master to Vision and Z�diac ] If you can make a fool of yourself infront of 300 people you can do anything - Jaiko D'kana |
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Luke - Ex-Student 
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think happy thoughts ummm.... ah o crap, I think just let one, I thought too hard.
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Alex Dkana - Staff 
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Welcome back Dave. Nice post dude. _______________ To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield | Unbowed, Unbent, Unbroken | Rhaiko D'kana - SWTOR EU Guild Co-Founder | Is it what the teacher, teaches? Or what the student learns? A Dkana |
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Raziel Anjelis - Student 
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It takes strength of character for someone to come out with this.
You sir, have that strength. Welcome back. _______________ Proud owner of El Vee For's 200th Comment, and Wicek's 2600th comment DaMi3N's 400th, Trad Redav's 666th.
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Pink_Mintaka - Student 
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Dude...
Welcome back!
/dances /throws a party     |
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