| Dante Valmont's final goodbye | |
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Dante Valmont - Retired  |
This was an email to renee. My last one to her and my last message to you all. Thank you. Renee, I have sent you a few messages since i got back from vacation, but no answer...not one. I Assumed you were just away but...then i went to check right before i sent this email...and i see what has been happening. You have met a new love, yes...and i will not interfere. It has been unfair to you and this experience has showed me that i know nothing more of love than i did when we started. I thought it was unbreakable, i thought you were dedicated to me and you trusted me...but after not hearing from me, you felt burnt, that i had left you. I See there is no absolute trust, no absolute dedication. Love, is dead. Renee, i am very sorry for putting you through whatever but it has been hell for me too. We are short on employees so im pulling double shifts on school nights, i have a horrible back problem and i feel like absolute shit most of the time. I was excited i finally got to a computer to email you, i've been lettin my friends play on my starwars galaxy account and my jedi knight game since i've been gone. I will not step in the way this time Renee, you deserve to be happy and i hope Jason makes you such. For what it's worth, i will try to come on more if i can even if im tired to say hi. I don't want to...burn...other people like i have you. I've learned a lot in this past year about love renee, but i didn't even know it. It was until the moment i read the email, that i realized how frail it is. If your not there for a bit, feelings grow apart and they find someone else to fill that gap. My feelings of dedication, my principles of honor and trust...they are all some mystical fairy tale from the movies. I'm beginning to realize that is what my life has completely been up until this point. Honor in a video game? Long distance love that can pass test of time and distance? Your mind is so powerful? Those are all lies, as i see it now, every thing i've preached or believed in...it's only things that can happen in fiction. So i'm going to stop pretending, stop acting like there is such things. You remember, when i told you i never wanted to be associated with anyone else and be recognized by myself, as someone important and no one like me. Child fantasy too...basically...i should be growing up. I feel like i've wasted such a big part of my life believing in lies but you have truly shown me the error in my thinking and i thank you. I love you with all my heart renee, though it may have changed within you it will never change within me. That is one thing i won't grow up on, i will always believe we had love...even if it was all false. This song, http://search.singingfish.com/mvc/search?query=One+thing+finger+11&duration=&av=av&fmt=&category= (the 7th number down on it, called One thing- by Finger 11). I just heard it today and have been listening to it all day, little to know what i would learn later. I find it a strange coincidence that i found that on this day. The day Dante Valmont is finally dead.I'm going to copy and paste this email to the jedi academy boards, just to let everyone who criticized me know they were right and everyone who understood what i was trying to say, learn from my mistakes. I hope you do not mind. Renee, i wish you happiness and luck in the rest of your life. I will always keep you in my prayers. This is the hardest thing i have ever had to do...to let go. But i know in my heart, there is no other choice. Baby, thank you. I love you renee, forevermore. Someday, i will figure out the answers to my many questions and truly learn, if everything i believed was infact the lie i see it now or maybe, just maybe is the truth. Hope, as you always say. The most foolish of human emotions, one that blinds the mind to the obvious truth yet keeps a person intact. I'm here..always. I love you... Now i finally say, goodbye. ~Eric ~Dante Valmont Love, should end with Hope. _______________ "A teacher is one who makes himself progressively unnecessary" |
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Henkes - Student 
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Take Good Care Dante. I'm confident you will succeed in life! Yours Faithfully, Henkes _______________ Get on your feet and do the Funky Alfonzo! |
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Nero - Student 
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Take care Dante, and may the world be kind to you. _______________ -Nero Quote: Curious, Smartass, what else? |
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Mic Den Octela - Student 
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The only wasted day, is one without laughter _______________ -Padawan of Virtue -Brother of Menaxia, *|irael, Krynn Adept, Majno, Ris Win Juljul, DaMi3N, Beowulf, Dash Starlight, Carrock and Yuken Zalak Bartender at Munes bar. Sir Mic of Nippledom! Proudly beating Wang, since '07. (Crackdown) |
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Majno - Padawan 
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If one doesn't let ones hart live, you will never feel anything. Goodluck, take care and God speed. _______________ " You've just taken your first steps into a larger world. " - Ben. |
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Thomasooo - Student 
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I don't know what to say, really....other than sorry your heart was broken, good luck in RL, and try to move on.  There will be other girls. _______________ In the navy and LOVING it! 
Recipient of comment no. 1000 and heart-warming words from Ataris!
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Masta - Jedi Council 
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Dante, although I never really met you before...I wish you good luck and hope that you master your emotions and get beyong all this... I know how very hard it is but...im still confident that you wont make the same mistake as i did and actually move on with your life... Once again, Good Luck and may RL always be a friend to you _______________ Find out more about the Jedi Academy Aurochs here and more about Masta here! Married to Kain. |
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Bail Hope of Belouve - Student 
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Somehow I feel obliged to answer Because I once experienced exactly the same thing. Not that I had to work double shifts, but I did lose contact with the girl for some time. That little time, changed everything. I know exactly how you feel, and exactly how much it hurts to see your loved one in someone else's arms... It hurts like hell, I know. I'm really sorry to hear that this happened to you, but I can assure you. This is NOT the end, it is the beginning! The beginning of a friendship, or perhaps a relationship with someone else. So perhaps Renee wasn't the one girl that you thought she was, or maybe she would turn out to be her exactly. Faith works in mysterious ways... This might just make you meet that special one ... which in my case definately happened ... I know these times are rough, but as we say "Hit a pillow" Try to be alone for a while, and yes, hit a pillow. Try to get all negative feelings out of your system, before they leave any damage. I know how it feels, and I know how hard it is. I know you're a great man Dante, I can clearly see this from your post. I'm sorry to hear that you're leaving. Whatever the decision of your future might hold, please think about what I said. As a wise man one said: "The world is a play, but your life is the centre role." Play the part, and play it well. Play it exactly as God had intended. For you to be happy. In the end, all that matters is how you lived. This thing with Renee definately got you down, I completely understand this, as I have lived through it myself. It's hard, but you'll come around stronger than before. What doesn't kill you, can only make you stronger. I'm sorry to hear that you're leaving, but I hope you haven't given up faith in people. There are great people out there, please keep that in mind. And a note for down the road: don't ever lose faith in other girls. Never! Yes, this one girl may not have been very faithful, and yes, this will have effects. It would be wrong if it did not, for in the end we would have learned nothing at all. _______________ Visit the Belouve Family Website! Quote: I try to have fun with my friends and try to make a difference as best I can. What does making a difference mean? Well, it can be as simple as saying hello, answering a question that seems obvious or heck, just talking. -- Vladarion
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Kainz00r - Jedi Knight 
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Bye Dante, and I wish you the best of luck for whatever you hope for in life. _______________ Fervent supporter of duelling - leave a message if you would like to battle! Married to Masta. |
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Lancer007 - Student 
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bye dante and take care. |
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Furi0us - Student 
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Dante, I will truly miss you and our battles on the servers. I hope everything works out ok for you, and wish you the best in whatever you choose to do. Fur. _______________ You are not your f***ing system specs. You are not your uptime stats, your script file, or your oversized desktop screencap. You are not your broadband connection. You are not your f***ing post count. |
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Aron - Retired 
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Heya Dante, Hang in there man Love can be the best feeling, but also the worst. Believe me, I speak from experience  Long distance relationships are tough and not as fun as you'd want them to be; it just keeps getting harder and harder too. Just keep in mind that your happyness does not solely depend on another person; everyone has their own life, even if you have a person you wish to share all that with. Make something of it, I know you can, just like everyone else. You just have to keep on fighting for it Take care man. -Aron This comment was edited by Aron on Sep 07 2004 10:58am. |
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Smilykrazy - Retired 
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Dante, I am sorry you are hurting. Life can really suck sometimes. You will get through this. Before you know it, this will all just be a memory. A story to tell your kids one day. Just move on with your life. Any forward position will be a good one. I hope that you will again return to the JA. But if not I wish you the best of luck in all that you do. I know you will be a success. Peace and love to you. Smily _______________ RIP MOM 06/29/58-07/31/08 Married to Koyi Donita 4/30/11 |
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Khâ D'Kana - Student 
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 Even if we've not had time to know eachother much I will miss you and your wisdom. Don't let down all things you were believing in, honor and love are crucials. I hope time will heal your injuries. Never forget than sun each morning win versus night. The happiness is always at the end of the way Take Care and farewell -Khâ _______________ In light of day, nor dark of night, no evil shall escape our sight. Proud member of the D'Kana family |
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Wolfwood - Student 
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As time passes wounds will heal, no matter how deep they are. They may leave their scars, yet thats just something to prove that you are alive. It's been a pleasure while it lasted Dante, I wish you good luck in your life and hopefully things will start taking a turn for the better soon. Maybe the wanderer will wander into the halls of the Academy from time to time in the future, we'll see. Until then, I wont forget you, take care of yourself my friend ~Obi-Wan Kenobi 'Many of the truths we cling to depend greatly on our point of view' _______________ ~ Honor is a fool's prize. Glory is of no use to the dead ~ This comment was edited by Wolfwood on Sep 07 2004 09:18am. |
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Janus - Retired 
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After reading this over, I want to say goodbye, I want to believe you're gone for good, but I've seen you come and go my friend, we all have our breaks, and no matter what, the bond of the community is what keeps us coming back. SO, you will find yourself a new beginning, and when things have settled, and the dust clears, and the opportunity presents itself, I know I'll see you back here one day. Good luck to you.... Janus Ryan _______________ Be honorable, be friendly, be trustworthy. Show respect to all whom you meet. Don't forget you learn when you win AND when you lose. Be the first to admit mistake AND the first to correct it. Be the shoulder for someone to lean on. Always remember those that sacrificed time to help you. Thank you Odan Wei, Vladarion, 3th, Moridin, n00b, Motrec, Faded, Leif, and Tido, you will not be forgotten as the ones to make you remember, it's all about fun... |
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Sfire - Student 
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Take care! _______________ |Sfire - Padawan to MOTREC, Gradius| |Owner of Motrec's and Gradius's 999th Comments! Also Smily's 5001 comment and 3th's 1903 comment! Also, cannot forget to mention the proud owner of Gradius' 3000th comment!| |
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Gradius - Ex-Student 
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Quote: Don't worry, I know i'm an asshole. I believe admitting it is enough justification.  *Giggle* No comment Nah J/k. Take care of yourself Dante, life is too short to let one person keep you down. Just do what I do, pick up a Reader's Digest and read the "College Humor" section _______________ - Proud padawan of Kueller. - We really are at the beginning of it all. The trick, of course, is to make sure we never find the end. - Bill Bryson, A Short History of Nearly Everything - <gen-e-sis-happy> Liek, you can train, liek, a n00b, but he'll just be a trained n00b... --> Wise words! - "daer SOE me likes your a company i am having your some money for letting me do stuff cos mes the best amd i do it all meself" - Slider |
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Don't worry, I know i'm an asshole. I believe admitting it is enough justification. |
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He doesn't have to make you look bad, Mike. You already did. _______________ Disgrace goes before destruction and pride before misfortune. This comment was edited by Darth Blaze on Sep 07 2004 02:25am. |
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Jaiko D'Kana - Student 
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Dante Valmont....Eric Although im not entirely sure why, ive been expecting this post for some time now, and it doesnt bring any joy to my heart to see you leave. You have been a shining inspiration to many people but the only one i can talk for is myself. Since day one of meeting you, you have shown me kindness, support and most importantly your friendship. The things you taught me the things ive learned from you .....not only helped me develope within the realms of the Game or the Academy, buthave proven time after time to be valuble life lessons..... As you stated honour in a video game isnt a major thing, Honour and respect amongst people is. You told me that Passion Rules Reason, god knows ive experianced the trusth behind that statement these last 8 months, going through an experiance not to disimilar to the one discribed in your email. But you also taught me to "find the problem, then fix it" , and i suppose this is your way of solving the problem in your own way. But failure isnt being knocked on your arse my friend....its staying knocked down. And life fortunatly does go on. I know this may be the final chapter of Dante Valmont , the man who helped many with very little respected in return........But this isnt the end of you Eric, its a new begining. You know as well as i that the mind is a wonderful thing, and with the right attiudes we can acheive any and everything. Just take your time my old friend, find your inner balance and im always around should you wish to talk. I am and always shall be your friend..... Have a long and happy life Eric, you deserve it And fair well, Dante Vamont..... Kami-Owari -JaikoD'Kana- _______________ The greatest discovery of my generation is that a human being can alter his life by altering his attitudes of mind. William James (1842 - 1910) |
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Oh come on man, you didn't see this coming? The girl pokes herself in microphone conversations over the internet to other guys, and you're like "I love her, she's special!". Get your head out of your arse, chief - she's not worth it. I told you this would happen, but you disregarded it. Ah well, I would have done the same. You're, what, coming up on 18? Don't waste your time on aging obese women with SERIOUS mental issues - just go out and enjoy the best years of your life. At the end of the day, Renee is selfish - she has no problem with dragging other people down for the sake of her own happiness. She's fucked herself over, but trust me - this is the best thing that could ever happen to you. Somehow, I get the idea that this isn't the last time we're going to hear from you. Don't prove me wrong, it'll make me look bad. |
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