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AngelD'Kana - ex-Student  |
Quote: Don't part with your illusions. When they are gone you may still exist, but you have ceased to live. - Mark Twain I was surfing the internet today and i came across this quote and it made me realize something i never thought of. Reading it was the final push i needed to open my eyes. For the weeks encoumpassing my leave i was barraged by msn messages asking me why i really left. It seems some people grew to know me more than i thought they had. Yet still i stood firm on the fact that i was taking time to myself. What i didnt realize is i already had time to myself and the way i had chosen to spend it was here. Leaving didnt free up any time i didnt already have, It just emptied time in which i had filled with a great amount of joy and pleasure. With all this empty time i soon found that i too grew empty inside, all it did was give me more time to focus on the negatives of the things to come in the future ie. the pain of the birth of 2 children, the sleepless nights, the occupied time. It was then that i realized i had my time but i soon wouldnt and thanks to a hasty move to prove my loyality to one person, i passed alot of my remaining me time in an unpleasant manner. I dont blame this person at all, they never told me to leave, they just felt i was acting in a certain manner which i wasnt and the only way i could think to prove my words was to leave. I used excuses i had told myself a while back prior to these precedings. How i needed to prepare. The fact remains i am prepared, all i do now is wait essentialy. But passing this time by doing nothing but chatting to a select few on msn and just playing solitaire has made me appreciate what the JA was to me. I always saw Angel D'Kana as an illusion, a fake me. And now i know i was right, but i need that fake me in order for the REAL me to live with some recreation. So Thank You Jaina, Jaiko, DJ Sith, Virtue and MOST OF ALL JumpinJedi for opening my eyes to the truth i ignored and covered. I need to be here. And so i will be here. I will stay from now and even beyond the birth of my kids. I will however drop in activity during the begining of parenthood. But hey at least i have time while they are sleeping  and after all if they are gonna keep me up all night I might as well have something to do like chat in IRC or something So im back and here to stay. One thing though: Seeing as a due date is an approximation, there is no telling EXACTLY when ill dissapear for the birth but upon my return from the hospital i will make a post announcing im home and still active _______________ SMILY RULES ALL AND SHE CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT Quote: Don't part with your illusions. When they are gone you may still exist, but you have ceased to live. - Mark Twain <Jedi_Prodigy> BOOOO angel! SEE SMILY? JP EVEN THINKS IM RIGHT  I WIN 12:15:30(AM)] * DJ_Sith gives Jacen_Solo a golden shower }{ [01:33:00(AM)] * DJ_Sith give `orion a wonderful golden shower! }{ [01:35:41(AM)] * DJ_Sith gives doobie|broke a wonderful golden shower! This post was edited by AngelD'Kana on Oct 12 2004 09:47pm. |
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Illian D'Kana - Student 
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Im glad your back Angel _______________ | Mental victory leads to physical victory. The mental battle begins before the physical battle. If you can defeat your opponent mentally half of the battle is won. | |
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tarpman - The Tarped Avenger 
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SMILY STILL RULES!! _______________ Saving the world, one kilobyte at a time. |
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Roan Belouve - Retired 
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Nice post Angel!! _______________ *Bro to Vaxxla,Padawan of FiZZandOdan-Wei Part of the mighty Belouve Dynasty-Knight of Nippledom.Twin of Selphestal!**Proud Master to Kaelis and Acura Friend to anyone who would call me the same . Pic by the amazing Majno (merry)
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Thomasooo - Student 
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Welcome back, Angel!! _______________ In the navy and LOVING it!
Recipient of comment no. 1000 and heart-warming words from Ataris!
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Carda Jowol - Student 
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YAY ANGELS BACK!! \o/ _______________ [Gran Father/Founder of the Jowols] |
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PlooKoon - Student 
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w00t wb angel look forward to not not seeing u  _______________ Moo |
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delta - Student 
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wb _______________ ~Dav Proud Former Padawan of 3th |
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Rosie - Student 
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wb |
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D@mned ++ - Student 
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WB ANGEL _______________ Bartender at Mune's bar. It’s not just a site, it’s a community. It’s not just a community, it’s the Academy. It’s not just the Academy, it’s a place in my heart. |
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Odan-Wei Belouve - Student 
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wb Angel, and thanks for attending my class yesterday _______________ Padawan and brother to SmilyKrazy - Adopted in the Belouve Family by Fizz and Bubu, BELOUVE ON! - Vladarion, you'll always be in my heart and memories - Spam-Padawan of Jacen Aratan  - [DJ is my beloved wife! - JA Family: Brothers:
Virtue, Furi0us, Vladarion, Hardwired, Janus, Axion, D@RtHM@UL, Motrec, Mike , xAnAtOs , Luke Skywalker; Little bro to SilkMonkey ; Special kind of brother to Kenyon ; Sisters in-law: Rosered, Ain-Soph Aur] Photoshop works: click here |
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Tido - Student 
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Glad you came back to us Angel, and that you have a fresh outlook on everything. I'll see ya in the servers! |
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Henkes - Student 
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Good to see you back my Sister! _______________ Get on your feet and do the Funky Alfonzo! |
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Selph Senatu - Student 
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Awesome to have you back Angel |
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Wolfwood - Student 
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I am glad to have you with us again Angel _______________ ~ Honor is a fool's prize. Glory is of no use to the dead ~ This comment was edited by Wolfwood on Oct 13 2004 09:06am. |
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ozzcoz - Cosplay Nerd 
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Well said, Bravo. Anybody who thinks they want to leave should come and read this post, then have a good think about it. This place is about fun. If you quit here it means you (a) don't like fun (b) don't know how to have fun. It's not like you have to be married to the JA, just come when you feel like it and have you some fun. _______________ A wizard did it. |
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Italian Ice - Student 
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Yay your back intime for my birthday tommow! _______________ It's funny how many people know they have the right to remain silent, yet never do. |
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Devlin - Student 
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It's good to have you back Angel _______________ Be at peace, and you will discover things you never dreamed possible. |
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Sfire - Student 
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Welcome back Angel!!!! _______________ |Sfire - Padawan to MOTREC, Gradius| |Owner of Motrec's and Gradius's 999th Comments! Also Smily's 5001 comment and 3th's 1903 comment! Also, cannot forget to mention the proud owner of Gradius' 3000th comment!| |
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DJK - Student 
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...W-B This comment was edited by DJK on Oct 13 2004 02:56am. |
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Duffman - Student 
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yay!!!!!! wb angel! _______________ *Sigh* Married to Mirael D'kana, Former master to Shangri Stomwind and Crash D'Kana, Owner of Gil-Galad's 100th post, Khâ D'Kana's 700th post, and friend to just about everyone |
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monkai - Student |
Angel is back! Call a Friend! |
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Furi0us - Student 
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Haha! Our conversation in IRC did make a difference (I hope so. ) Welcome back Angel, we missed ya! _______________ You are not your f***ing system specs. You are not your uptime stats, your script file, or your oversized desktop screencap. You are not your broadband connection. You are not your f***ing post count. |
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Kessler - Student 
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Welcome Back Kessler _______________ May The Force Be With You |
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Scythus Aratan - Student 
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Welcome back . No-one seems able to leave these days . _______________ Padawan to the great Jacen Aratan! <Setementor> Scythus is a genius! Claimer of the 5000th post in the Count thread [Solitude] scy rocks [Casual] good point scythus, you're really smart |
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Sauce - =^.^= 
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wb |
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