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Antares - Student  |
Allright, I'm afraid this will be quite a long speech, so please, bare with me.  Those of you who know me might have realised I have been quite unactive, only getting on the servers for a few classes which I assist to quite regularly. Why? Will you ask. Well, first, because of time restrictions. You might, as you might not, know I am in a clan. I care a lot about these wonderful people, and I feel it is a must to spend at least half of my time with them. There would be no problem, especially, now with vacations, if it wasn't for what brings me to my second point. It has been pretty much a month since I started playing CTF, and the only term that doesnt fall short to describe what happened then is enlightenment (sorry if I spelt it wrong). it has completely changed the way I play the game, the way I feel it, the way I live it. It opened up a whole new perspective of the way the game should be in my eyes. After that, well, I have to confess the perspectives the Academy offered did not seem nearly as much exciting, and I spent my days almost exclusively on Chop Shop, entirely neglecting the Academy with the exception of Jacen's gunning and CTF classes, and Obi-Wan's unusual duels. Boy, I feel so dumb right now... But I'll come back to this afterwards. And last but not least, I felt, how could I describe it? More as a spectator of some sort, rather than a true member of this community. I was of course the only one to blame of this, and lots of times did I considered attempting to get inside once again, but I couldn't help thinking: I already came and left, will they care anymore? I kept wondering for a few weeks, checking the forums daily, but almost never, if ever, posting: had this continued to go on, I would have most likely, one day, deleted the bookmarks and let everyone in the academy forget about my name. I was even considering posting a thread in the forums, announcing my departure: But what was the point? I was already, for most of the people that ever knew me, gone. And then, this afternoon, I see my brother Tido left a message in my profile: Obi Wan's paddies (which includes me) would now proudly wear the last name of their master: I liked the sound of the name, Mace Kenobi, but I was still enough in touch with Obi and Tido to know how highly symbolic this was: It was the moment to choose wether I'd leave or stay, and my decision would be impossible to change afterwards. But for some reason I was very troubled. Could there still be a place for me in there? There was, of course, only one way to find out. To say the truth, and despite all my intentions to be as objective and unbiased as possible in my decision, I couldn't help but starting to prepare my retirement speech and the messages I'd leave on the profiles of everyone who was important to me during my stay at the Academy (I'm sorry, I'm addicted to drama  ) as I tried for the third time to type in the ridiculously complex password (no offense to the one who invented it ). There, I quickly met a student I have never seen before, jarhok. I thikn he heard me talking to aiden about this problem I had, and we quickly started talking about, you know, stuff. RL, video games, saber stances, just the random conversation you could have with anyone. We also dueled a little. But what really touched me was the fact that he, a person who I had never heard of (and I dont think he had ever heard of me before, either), actually truly cared about wether a random joe he didn't knew fifteen minutes ago or not, would officially confirm his retired status and walk away, or try to get back into it again. I believe I was in the server for a bit more than half an hour. Within the first few minutes of the conversation, I knew I wanted to stay, and give myself a new chance to be a part of this wonderful community. Because what the academy promotes is more than just playing the game: It's being a part of something great, of something that goes beyond dueling, CTF, FFA, guns and lightsabers. of something that is almost as true as real life itself. So, to sum-up this boring and long speech: I'm back, and I promise I'll do wathever is im power to make this definite. I ask for forgiveness to Obi-Wan, Tido, jalune, and the entire Jedi Academy. I would also like to express my most sincere gratitude towards Jarhok. Thanks a whole lot man. Long live the Academy! *Edited to make it easier on the eye* _______________ "only two things are infinite: Human stupidity and the universe. And i'm not sure about the latter" Albert Einstein Proud padawan to Obi-Wan Kenobi, Brother to Tido, Setementor, Jalune and Jana-Johauna This post was edited by Antares on Jul 16 2004 07:15am. |
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Italian Ice - Student 
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Tido said it best Quote: don't you dare think for a second that you aren't a part of this community; you are. Your are man, dont forget it. even if you did retire, you still left your mark on ppl here. You'll never be forgotten, only missed. _______________ It's funny how many people know they have the right to remain silent, yet never do. |
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n00b - Student 
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Man, get on Teamspeak if you really want to feel part of something. We have a very fun time there and its been growing in numbers. Best of all, you can actually hear what people are saying and know what they mean. No text interpretation needed! Best of all, a lot of laughing and high spirited times! No one walks away not smiling. _______________ Gone but hopefully not forgotten... |
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R2D2 - Staff 
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This community is the best large conglomeration of Jedi Academy players I have ever seen. I don't think I've been here a whole week yet, but this place is awesome   Glad to see you've joined again, and I hope to meet you sometime. _______________ "Do or do not, there is no try" Jedi Master Yoda Dual Saberist This comment was edited by R2D2 on Jul 16 2004 03:07am. |
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ioshee - Student 
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/tries to start slow clap That was a great story. I know it was a true story, but that's part of what makes it a great one. I "came back"™ for the community (the best on Mr. Gore’s little internet IMHO) The games are fun, but no game compares to this awesome community. _______________ One of the Belouve boys |
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Setementor - Jedi Master 
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I'm glad you stayed after all, see you around. I was almost in tears... |
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Tido - Student 
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Wow....Mace I'm speechless. You do not know how much it troubles me to think we almost lost you. I didn't really think that you were contemplating retirement! I think that you don't realize how much a part of this entire thing you really are. You claimed that you felt more like a spectator, but in my eyes Mace, you were one of the guys (or girls) who make this place what it is. I remember when I met you the first time - before I became Obi's paddy. I saw both you and him in the game and couldn't help but to notice how you two got along and had fun together. Feeling the need to see how I measured up to Obi's paddy, I dueled you a few times; and you destroyed me. But just like many of the great folks here, you had the best attitude about it. You praised me for things I did well, and offered to help in places I was weak. Instantly I was very impressed from that day forward. After that every time I saw you log in I got a little excited. In a community full of strangers, I felt like you were one of the people I could feel welcome around. Then as chance would have it, I became Obi's second padawan and your JA brother. I couldn't have been happier - the idea of having you as my brother just sounded perfect to me. And you were very supportive of me: welcoming me right away as your paddy brother, and then always motivating me to try harder/train more. In padawan sessions we worked off eachother better than I have with any other training partner. Never once did I doubt that I wasn't in the best hands when it came to my JA 'family'. We got to know eachother better and better...and you even put up with my wisecracks and cheap insults towards the French ! As we saw you less and less, it made many of us very sad (not just Obi and I). We missed having you around, talking with you, and the funny moments we usually have. But we understood that RL calls, and that you have obligations towards your clan. But in the back of my head, I always felt confident that you would return, and things would be like they were. On one hand I can count the people responsible for me still being in the Academy. If these people hadn't been the great folks they are, I would have never gotten into this place and probably would be in some sith clan thinking how 'l33t' I am at flipkicking . You are one of those people, Mace. If it wasn't for you, I probably wouldn't be here, or be Obi's padawan. And I'm just one person out of 7700 in this Academy; who knows how many others you've affected. I'm so releived that you're staying. Please don't you dare think for a second that you aren't a part of this community; you are. And if CTF is what you love, many of us will be happy to follow you there. |
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Ashyr - Student 
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That's great man. I don't know if it's the song I'm listening to, but you had me crying. I'm glad you decided to stay. I know what it's like to have the option of leaving, and no one knowing or caring. When I decided to stay, I realized that wasn't the case. Anyway, I'm glad you decided to stay. Welcome to the first day of the rest of yout time here.  _______________ Top ten reasons to get a better computer...|My fan |
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Bail Hope of Belouve - Student 
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Quote: Because what the academy promotes is more than just playing the game: It's being a part of something great, of something that goes beyond dueling, CTF, FFA, guns and lightsabers. of something that is almost as true as real life itself. I completely heartily agree Great to have you back I hope to see you on the servers, mate! _______________ Visit the Belouve Family Website! Quote: I try to have fun with my friends and try to make a difference as best I can. What does making a difference mean? Well, it can be as simple as saying hello, answering a question that seems obvious or heck, just talking. -- Vladarion
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