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Wolfwood - Student  |
Hey guys, its Wolfwood here. Don't mind the name, it is just a braveheart thingy since I just saw that movie. Anyway, I am having something that I just want to explain to you guys. That being the reasons (up to the level of detail I wish to take it) behind the period of inactivity I had till about 3-4 weeks ago. It all started with an argument really about 3 months ago. I was sitting at home after a very hard day at work when my girlfriend came to me and said she was getting pretty sick of me working till late in the evenings just about every day. I explained her that because of the line of work I chose (at that time) there was just no other way. Things were said, things that I will keep to myself since I will just tell you guys the big picture and not all the mushy details (I know you want them Gradius but... sorry  ). That night I started thinking about what I had achived in my life. I did not finish university and that was probably my biggest concern. I was doing my job as it was because I was very lucky to have such an opportunity presented to me. However, it was not starting to feel right anymore for me. I still enjoyed it but, the thought of having to work at crazy hours for the rest of my life scared me a bit since I actually did not want to do that. Then around that time, a lot of stuff started coming at me at the same time. Trouble in my family, trouble at home with Miss Wolfwood, trouble at work. It got to the point where I needed to vent my frustration because otherwise my head would explode. First I just punched at a pillow for half an hour or so but after two weeks that did not work anymore. I started becoming overall stressed and very grumpy. I did not look at positive things anymore and started to become kinda like ebenezer scrooge. I tried to hide my feelings from the JA. Because I always held up a rule for myself: Leave your emotions at the door when you enter the Server. I had to, I had a job to do here as well and that was a pretty big responsibilty. But I have a feeling that I was not able to do that at all times. And most of you do not know how very sorry I am that I could not do that. So yea, it is another appology post but hey, I am not done yet. Until about 1.5-2 months ago, I was still in that very annoying part of my life until I read something about a new study at a university that really appealed to me. I went to a so called 'open day' where they open the doors to the university so you can check out what goes on there. To my surprise it was extremely cool. I started thinking again and needed time and at that time it got to the point where I did my classes but I got less active on the normal days that did not have a class on it. Again I appologize for that, being a Trainer in the Academy is much more then simply having your classes twice a week. You have to be involved in the Academy, involved with the students, and I was not. At least, not at that time. After taking some time to think, I finally made my decision. I quit the job I was doing at that time (I only work one day a week now) and decided to go back to university and finish what I had started about 4 years ago. (of course its a different study but hey, it's finishing what you start). After I made that decision, it was like all the lead I had on my shoulders was being lifted extremely fast. I no longer had to worry about work issues anymore, my Girlfriend and I are still together and doing awesome again at the moment, all the trouble is flowing off me like it is being sucked up by a massive vaccuum cleaner. (I am sure you all noticed that I am not as stressed as I was over the last two months). And I can tell you, it sure feels extremely good. So with that summed up, you now know in small detail what has been going on for me the last months. I know I am not really oblidged in any way to explain such stuff to you but, I still feel that my way of behaving over the last two-three months requires some explaining. All I can do now is appologize for my behavior over the past two months and hope that you will accept it. So there you have it, I hope you guys don't hate me now or anything. Also, I may not be an instructor anymore, but if anyone needs some help with the game or something else, you can always contact me when I am on the servers, or on my profile. Well, that was all from me, I'll see you guys on the servers  _______________ ~ Honor is a fool's prize. Glory is of no use to the dead ~ This post was edited by Wolfwood on May 19 2005 09:43am. |
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Thomasooo - Student 
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I'm really glad to hear that things are going your way, WW!  Good look at university, with your job, with your girlfriend and all other aspects of RL! I'm glad to hear you're not leaving. See ya on the servers! _______________ In the navy and LOVING it!
Recipient of comment no. 1000 and heart-warming words from Ataris!
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Bubu - Hubbub 
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I always hated you anyway. Ok maybe it was love. Same thing really. Glad to hear you're over that bump in the road. Ireland came to your rescue? _______________ make install -not war |
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Devlin - Student 
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Way to go WW...goin back to school after taking time off isn't always the easiest thing to do, but for a lot of us it's the best thing to do. Glad to hear everything's working out _______________ Be at peace, and you will discover things you never dreamed possible. |
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tarpman - The Tarped Avenger 
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Eeek... RL can be a scary place. Good luck facing the demons. We'll all be here for you. *salute* _______________ Saving the world, one kilobyte at a time. |
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Wolfwood - Student 
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Quote: I am sorry to hear that you are not taking the trials to become a JAT again but visit the servers and I hope to see you there in the future! Well I am defenately visiting the servers because the above post is in no way a 'goodbye' post (I could never leave this place so...). I just appologize for how I have acted the last 3 months. And weither I will ever be amongst the ranks again is not in my hands but in the hands of the council _______________ ~ Honor is a fool's prize. Glory is of no use to the dead ~ This comment was edited by Wolfwood on May 19 2005 10:40pm. |
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Illian D'Kana - Student 
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Im glad everything is sorted for you mate Must have been hard to go thro all that alone.. remember we are here for you oh and Good luck at Uni /Illian _______________ | Mental victory leads to physical victory. The mental battle begins before the physical battle. If you can defeat your opponent mentally half of the battle is won. | |
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Trooper! - Student 
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Dear old Woolfwood, I tell you when I first joined the Academy, you were my first steady regular teacher. A lot of how I feel about the Academy comes from my experiences with you. You have proven to be a class act as shown in this post. In short I love the Academy and all it stands for. I am so glad you made changes in your life that sound to me to be right. I am sorry to hear that you are not taking the trials to become a JAT again but visit the servers and I hope to see you there in the future! WoolfWood, May the Force be with you, Always Trooper _______________ Honor those better than you would yourself. |
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Anakin - Student |
luck |
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Scythus Aratan - Student 
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WTG WW, gl 4 rl _______________ Padawan to the great Jacen Aratan! <Setementor> Scythus is a genius! Claimer of the 5000th post in the Count thread [Solitude] scy rocks [Casual] good point scythus, you're really smart |
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CuZzA - Student 
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u pwned ur problems... congratz and good luck _______________ - Even if Carlsberg made "w*nkers", Christiano Ronaldo would still be the biggest "w*nker" in the world |
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PlooKoon - Student 
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Gl at Uni mate . Nice to hear things are going well Edit: Braveheart pwns _______________ Moo This comment was edited by PlooKoon on May 19 2005 06:26pm. |
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Setementor - Jedi Master 
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Good to hear it's all sorted out. I noticed you getting somewhat annoyed on IRC a bit in recent weeks, but other than that, I didn't see you do anything worth an apology on the servers. Keep rocking Wolfwood! |
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Henkes - Student 
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Good to see everything has or is working out for you now WW! I can imagine you've been through a rough time, and it's good to see that pressure is melting away. For the apology part, I noticed you were busy, but you always managed to have and spread fun on the servers, at least from my point of view You rock mate! _______________ Get on your feet and do the Funky Alfonzo! |
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Khâ D'Kana - Student 
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Nice to hear you found something more suiting for you WW. And as rl always comes first we can understand you needed time to solve those issues  Good luck with those new studies, -Khâ D'Kana _______________ In light of day, nor dark of night, no evil shall escape our sight. Proud member of the D'Kana family |
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Dacascos - Lowly Urchin 
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Trust me when I say I know how you feel WW. I'm glad it's over for you though. Good luck I recently fixed most my rl issues, but now with my new job things are getting harder again. Anyways, enough about me, let's talk about me! Bad joke, I know. I suck at those. Either way, Good luck matey. _______________ PSN: Argantes XBL: Ravencloak My destiny lies where my fate leads me... |
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Vasper Ba'xian - Student 
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Kinda in that situation right now. No GF though, makes things much simpler. Glad to see you m8! Now I would like to say something. It's a quote from one of my favorite people in the world. A great man. A lover and teacher of children(not lover like M.Jackson lover)A lover of shoes!....The One..........The Only..........Mr. Rogers! "Have a Nice Day Everyone!" _______________ Brother to: Tamal, Kavar, J.D.,Jermia, Devlin, Ulic, Xiabara, Seij,Tarron Mib,>>>ROCK ON .My Spacescapes art page.My Everything Else art page. MY FAV. Jedi Are: Qui-Gon Jinn, Corran Horn, and Anakin Solo. Unofficial Master to Tamal. and Kavar. Founder of the Wuji Hundun Jian saber style. Proud owner of Tamal's 200th comment!//Proud owner of Refl3x's 300th comment!>>>Proud owner of Tyrant's 800th comment>>>Proud owner of Lucky's 170th comment>>>Proud owner of BDKawika's 444th comment>>>To except Existance is to except Reality.
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Kainz00r - Jedi Knight 
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And they all lived happily ever after ;D _______________ Fervent supporter of duelling - leave a message if you would like to battle! Married to Masta. |
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Kueller - Student 
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Good that everything is getting together again. GF's, work and school, all so hard to work together. Good luck with it, I'll bash your skull someplace on the servers anytime soon _______________ Personal sleepness-nights-supporter of Virtue. Owner of the 1000th comment of Daidalus and 1943th comment of Gradius! Owner of the 300th comment of Carda! -Taught Gradius all his laming skills
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3th - Retired 
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glad that you're getting back to something that's right for you WW. best of luck with it. for what it's worth, you never seemed like too big of an arse around me glad you're still around us man, take care of yourself _______________ this is the internet, be serious damn it! |
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Gradius - Ex-Student 
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You've had a rough road to get here bro, glad it all worked out for you. I demand those "details" nonetheless. Glad you let us know what was going on too, seemed a bit worried to keep hearing you say you had RL troubles but never telling anyone what they were. Still love ya man. _______________ - Proud padawan of Kueller. - We really are at the beginning of it all. The trick, of course, is to make sure we never find the end. - Bill Bryson, A Short History of Nearly Everything - <gen-e-sis-happy> Liek, you can train, liek, a n00b, but he'll just be a trained n00b... --> Wise words! - "daer SOE me likes your a company i am having your some money for letting me do stuff cos mes the best amd i do it all meself" - Slider |
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