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Edit 2: Apparently, I can't pull myself away from the ENTIRE SITE! LOL. I guess all the support I have recieved held me down.  I don't mean to lay my burdens on everyone, but thanks for the support...don't worry about it, though. I don't think I need any support nor did I ask for it. I guess I'm sticking around now, so you all can celebrate. LOL. I really did think I could run from the JA. Boy, was I wrong. Not possible...really not possible.Edit: Apparently, I can't pull myself away from this forum. I suppose I'm a little addicted to the site at least. Well...I haven't really QUIT, but I have slacked off a LOT. This forum is now kind of...half and half... It's about me leaving the JA, but it has turned into a discussion about me and my girlfriend. That's fine with me. But that doesn't drop the fact that I will leave soon. For now, I'm on standby until something good happens, so I'll post in this forum for now.______________________________________________ Edit: Now for my original "goodbye" message... I've had two names at the Jedi Academy. I was Sladious before I was Ale-Daramos. This is because I took a long break from playing and my account expired. Now, my friends, I believe it is time for me to leave for good. As the usual messages about leaving say, life has pulled me away from the Academy, but it's much more complicated than that. I believe this calls for a little explanation. First of all, I have wasted too much of my life on video games and I have quit playing them without even realizing it. Now, I feel as though I need to make up for my lost childhood I should have spent with my friends outside. I have sat around too long and I now regret the last 14 years of my life. I began playing the Atari when I was 2 and I was addicted sense then. I'm 16 and I QUIT! I don't HATE video games, but I don't find them as fun as life. On another note, I have school almost all day now and I have no time for games. I need to study and find a way to earn money so I can move. I need to get my permit and learn to drive. I need to make things better for myself. Last, but most certainly not least. I would like to move to Tennessee as soon as possible. Why, you might ask? It sounds typical, but the story is too complicated to explain here. There is a girl in Tennessee that I feel like I haven't been loyal enough to. She needs my help and I need hers, but we're over 9 hours away from each other. Yes, it sounds typical, but it's the fact. I love her too much to stay behind and do nothing. If I really love her, I will do anything to get to her...and that's what I'm going to do. If you have a problem with any of this, feel free to complain. I don't plan on visiting the site again, so don't expect a response. I may have not been all that popular, but I still have to say sorry...so I'm sorry I'm leaving, guys. It's something I need to do. I can't say that I'll miss you guys, because I won't. Nothing against anyone, but I really care too much about my girlfriend to care about anything or anyone else. SAYONARA! _______________ Wanna know what my name means? Peralos Ale'Velkyrii: Perilous Drunken Angel, or PDA for short.  Perilous, because I'm bound to get into fights I can't win. Drunken, because ALE! Angel, because a valkyrie is basically an angel of Odin. I'm here to send you to the afterlife, but I can't gurantee I'll be stable enough to win a fight. This post was edited by Ale'Velkyrii on Sep 08 2003 01:11am. |
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Ale'Velkyrii - Student 
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Hmm...I guess I have a little explaning to do. I'm Catholic, so it's only natural that I would pray for help. Besides...Tiff isn't entirely breaking us up. Things have been a little out of control, but we calmed things down. When we first met on AIM, we were immediate friends. We have NEVER had even a SLIGHTLY serious argument. And this is from three months of chatting on AIM every night for hours. We're both writers, we both love anime...I'll stop the list there. There's too much to tell. When I'm upset or depressed, I can't write ANYTHING. When she's in the same mood, she writes dark things...sometimes gruesome. Lately, I haven't been writing and she has been writing dark stories. Does that tell you something? Well, last night we talked like we always do, but it was better. Like I said, we always have fun when we're talking...but the past few weeks have been stressful. I won't go into details, but we had too much bothering us. Last night, we threw all of that out of our minds and just enjoyed ourselves. We're reverting to the old days when we loved talking to each other. We're tired of the worry, so we're going to just be our old selves without the problems and worry.Yes, playing the guitar does help...even if I do suck. Music always soothes the soul, but playing it does even more. I don't exactly like my life here, but I enjoy it as much as I can. Nothing good will come out of dwelling on my problems. One other thing... Tiff and I both understand fully about everything we tell each other. We understand each other so well that I knew exactly what she meant. I KNEW that she cared too much about me to keep this up. We both know this. We understand things much better than a lot of people do. It's just the way we are. You don't need to explain what she meant and you don't need to comfort me. We have enough comfort and understanding from each other.  Things are better now.We still love each other and we can never give up. Things just needed to settle down and she had to tell me that. However, I appreciate the support. I really don't need it, but it comforts me to know that there are people who do care. Thanks. _______________ Wanna know what my name means? Peralos Ale'Velkyrii: Perilous Drunken Angel, or PDA for short. Perilous, because I'm bound to get into fights I can't win. Drunken, because ALE! Angel, because a valkyrie is basically an angel of Odin. I'm here to send you to the afterlife, but I can't gurantee I'll be stable enough to win a fight.
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Blade_Knight - Student 
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Man Link.....wow, that's very similar to my situation. I'll tell you, I don't think I ever cared for someone as much as I did my last girlfriend. When she said to me "I don't want you around, you're nothing but a burdon to me." wow...I just felt like putting a bullet in the back of my head and ending it all right there. Some days after I started praying, even though I'm really not that much of a church man. Things have gotten better since then. So, you've got another "cross-bearing idiot" to relate too . That, and someone very special has stuck by me the entire time and always seems to be there for me to talk to, it's the first time I've every had anything like that in my life. But yeah, this is history in the making, BK talked about his feelings! *gasp! It's a sign of the apacolypse!!* _______________ -=Brother to Nightcrawler and JediKnight13=- "I've been told my style is crasy and visually confusing."~Mikel Rider |
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I agree with Kueller, man...like you, I've recently had to accept the fact that the girl I've loved for three years in secret actually does not have the same feeling, and that she wants me away from her. I can imagine how your heart must be in your situation, and I feel for you. I don't know what to say; maybe I shouldn't say anything. But, like Kueller said, that guitar of yours can help you out. One of the great things with music is that it's your emotions and feelings of the moment, crystallized. When I heard directly from my girl what I just told you, I swear that I wanted to kill myself. I was so depressed and so incomplete with myself, I didnt' know what to do. And now, i'm able to live life again, even though it still hurts to see her everyday. One part was that I asked God to help me out. One of my friends told me how God had helped him move on after his girlfriend dumped him, and I was so inspired by it that I decided to do it. I prayed to God everyday for strength and resolve, and for closure. I essentially left my troubles to him, and tried to trust him that he would take care of it. I know that you might be thinking "Oh great, jsut what I needed; another cross-holding idiot telling me to go to God." But I'm serious man...I would not be here if I had not made the decision to really ask God for help. And everytime I feel as if the world doesn't matter anymore whenever I see her, I ask God for strength and help. The second was that I was so moved and emotional and depressed at one time that I sat at my piano and just started to played notes without thinking. I ended up writing a song that showed me how hopeless, how much despair, and how broken-hearted I was at that time. And after I finished playing, I felt like a big weight had been lifted from me. I dont' know how to explain it...I guess it was that I was able to let out all of that emotion that was inside of me out, and still be able to see it without keeping it buried in my heart, like some yoke over my shoulders. I know that what I've said may be a little dumb and stupid and some points. I wouldn't blame you if you ignored my post. I just want to help you see that it is possible to move on, no matter how hard or how hurtful or how impossible it may seem. I realized that you can't do it alone, and that was where God helped me out. Keep posting here man...keep posting... _______________ memento mori |
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Kueller - Student 
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Nakushtae, what she said against you about the same what that girl of mine said to me. Just friday she told me that if I ever would go to her again she would slip her wrist before my eyes. It's very hard to keep your sanity then, and it's not a bad thing to be depressed about it, everybody has got the right to feel crap about these things. That guitar of yours you can use as an outlet, really dive into it, it'll make for something you CAN work on. And after you have finished dealing with your own feelings and sadness, maybe you can understand that she is a bit confused too. That she doesn't want you near her is a sign that mean a lot to her. It means you mean so much to her that she is scared it would be to much to swallow. This kind of relation needs a very firm emational foundations. If your life is totally upside down from other things, this kind of relations are enough to destroy you. I think that after she has dealt with her issues that she really wants (and needs) you back. IN the meantime, you can help her a lot via email and chat, even if that sounds funny. It's a sort of contact that can help her, but isn't as confronting as telephone talks or meeting in RL. Just my view on the subject, and you know all my hopes are still with you. And it WILL work out eventually, just maybe not the way you had planned it, but it will come to a good end, believe that. _______________ Personal sleepness-nights-supporter of Virtue. Owner of the 1000th comment of Daidalus and 1943th comment of Gradius! Owner of the 300th comment of Carda! -Taught Gradius all his laming skills
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Ale'Velkyrii - Student
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And then things take a turn for the worse. She has too many problems in her life to bring me into the picture. She says she doesn't want to hurt me, but it hurts to not be there. Things keep getting worse over time and I can't do anything about it. If anything else happens, I'm sure that will be the time I need to leave the Academy for real. I'm not joking. I'm in a world of grief now and I have too much on my mind to keep a tight hold on my sanity. I got a guitar yesterday, but now I'm not so sure I'm going to be able to learn to play it with everything that's going on. I don't want support or any sympathy now. Don't bother talking to me about it. _______________ Wanna know what my name means? Peralos Ale'Velkyrii: Perilous Drunken Angel, or PDA for short. Perilous, because I'm bound to get into fights I can't win. Drunken, because ALE! Angel, because a valkyrie is basically an angel of Odin. I'm here to send you to the afterlife, but I can't gurantee I'll be stable enough to win a fight.
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Ale'Velkyrii - Student 
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The truth is out. Parents have been informed...life is taking a sharp turn now...things are gonna be a little screwy compared to how my life used to be. Thankfully, they're really supportive about the whole thing and are already planning on getting me out there a few times within the next few months. I'M REALLY HAPPY RIGHT NOW. _______________ Wanna know what my name means? Peralos Ale'Velkyrii: Perilous Drunken Angel, or PDA for short. Perilous, because I'm bound to get into fights I can't win. Drunken, because ALE! Angel, because a valkyrie is basically an angel of Odin. I'm here to send you to the afterlife, but I can't gurantee I'll be stable enough to win a fight.
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Ale'Velkyrii - Student
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Ok, that just sucked. LOL. It was great to talk to her again, but I had about 5 other windows on screen with everyone talking at once. On top of that, I was finishing up Newtius' profile picture. I had too many things going on at once. As a result, I was unable to really TALK to Tiff. Ok, yes I was able to, but I wasn't able to ask her if she wanted to join. Tonight should be a different story. _______________ Wanna know what my name means? Peralos Ale'Velkyrii: Perilous Drunken Angel, or PDA for short. Perilous, because I'm bound to get into fights I can't win. Drunken, because ALE! Angel, because a valkyrie is basically an angel of Odin. I'm here to send you to the afterlife, but I can't gurantee I'll be stable enough to win a fight.
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Ale'Velkyrii - Student
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I'll talk to her about it tonight. This'll be the first time chatting with her since...thursday. I hope she wants to, because she's quite fun. _______________ Wanna know what my name means? Peralos Ale'Velkyrii: Perilous Drunken Angel, or PDA for short. Perilous, because I'm bound to get into fights I can't win. Drunken, because ALE! Angel, because a valkyrie is basically an angel of Odin. I'm here to send you to the afterlife, but I can't gurantee I'll be stable enough to win a fight.
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Kueller - Student 
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Sure, it's a free land. Anyone can join. There are a lot of members here that don't play the game anymore. Nice to meet the girl that has been talked about so much. _______________ Personal sleepness-nights-supporter of Virtue. Owner of the 1000th comment of Daidalus and 1943th comment of Gradius! Owner of the 300th comment of Carda! -Taught Gradius all his laming skills
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Ale'Velkyrii - Student
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QUESTION! Who thinks I should try to get my GF to join the JA? She doesn't have the game, so she isn't able to play, but I'm in a similar situation anyway. I think she'd make a great contribution to the JA...at least as a friendly member. I think that would be great, but I won't stress her to do it. I just want to know what you all think. I want you all to meet her. _______________ Wanna know what my name means? Peralos Ale'Velkyrii: Perilous Drunken Angel, or PDA for short. Perilous, because I'm bound to get into fights I can't win. Drunken, because ALE! Angel, because a valkyrie is basically an angel of Odin. I'm here to send you to the afterlife, but I can't gurantee I'll be stable enough to win a fight.
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Ale'Velkyrii - Student
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That's fine with me...uh...I mean that I'm fine with you mentioning that here. Sorry you broke up.  I hope you find someone else soon. Try to be happy. _______________ Wanna know what my name means? Peralos Ale'Velkyrii: Perilous Drunken Angel, or PDA for short. Perilous, because I'm bound to get into fights I can't win. Drunken, because ALE! Angel, because a valkyrie is basically an angel of Odin. I'm here to send you to the afterlife, but I can't gurantee I'll be stable enough to win a fight.
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..PJ.. - Student 
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GRR My gf just split up wit me. F00k. EDIT: This seemed an appropriate place to put it. :\ _______________ JK2 pwnz0rs JK3. This comment was edited by ..PJ.. on Sep 07 2003 08:35pm. |
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Ale'Velkyrii - Student
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Of course I'll finish your pic. I almost forgot, though. Sorry...I'm working on it right now. Heh...this is similar to a soap opera, but... She's not pregnant nor does she have another boyfriend. On top of this, her family isn't rich and famous. We don't live in towns where EVERYONE knows EVERYONE. Her last name isn't Buchanan (however you spell it) or anything...she doesn't have a fancy haircut, a fancy house, a supportive brother (sadly); or fifty parents, aunts, and uncles that have married every person in town. LOL. Things aren't THAT screwed up. I'm even further from that situation, actually. _______________ Wanna know what my name means? Peralos Ale'Velkyrii: Perilous Drunken Angel, or PDA for short. Perilous, because I'm bound to get into fights I can't win. Drunken, because ALE! Angel, because a valkyrie is basically an angel of Odin. I'm here to send you to the afterlife, but I can't gurantee I'll be stable enough to win a fight.
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Newtius Slasher - Ex-Student 
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well its too bad your leaving i never got the chance to fight you on the server or even meet you on ther but please do one thing before you leave...finish my profile pic  whoa this thread is deep like sopopera This comment was edited by Newtius Slasher on Sep 07 2003 12:39am. |
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Kueller - Student
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HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY Well, actually, I got the feeling things are not going to work out, she doesn't love me enough I think. But there are still some days until she decides. IN the meantime, I have a HUGE hangover. Drinking away your probs suddenly doesn't seem like such a great idea anymore _______________ Personal sleepness-nights-supporter of Virtue. Owner of the 1000th comment of Daidalus and 1943th comment of Gradius! Owner of the 300th comment of Carda! -Taught Gradius all his laming skills
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Ale'Velkyrii - Student
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Whatever works. Seriously. Whatever works to make her happy works. As long as you're both happy, things will be...well...HAPPY! _______________ Wanna know what my name means? Peralos Ale'Velkyrii: Perilous Drunken Angel, or PDA for short. Perilous, because I'm bound to get into fights I can't win. Drunken, because ALE! Angel, because a valkyrie is basically an angel of Odin. I'm here to send you to the afterlife, but I can't gurantee I'll be stable enough to win a fight.
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Kueller - Student
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Well, I think she could use a boyfriend, but I think I can give her the joy in the world even without being her boyfriend. It would suck for me, but it would also make me happy. Life is full of paradoxes _______________ Personal sleepness-nights-supporter of Virtue. Owner of the 1000th comment of Daidalus and 1943th comment of Gradius! Owner of the 300th comment of Carda! -Taught Gradius all his laming skills
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Ale'Velkyrii - Student
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Ouch...things appear to really suck for her. I didn't know YOU were suicidal once...I'm glad that you didn't go with it; I'm sure you're glad too. It feels great to help people in need, so I've recently TRULY discovered. Once you've experienced something that you hope to never experience again, you know so much about what NOT to do. Like the first time I loved someone. It caused my four-year depression when she left and knew nothing about how I felt. The other day, I helped a friend with a similar situation that was causing her a lot of grief. I knew that I had to tell her about what happened with my decision, because I couldn't let it happen to her. After giving her encouragement and words of advice, she did what I couldn't do and is really happy now. I was happier than she was that night because I was able to prevent her from the same fate I suffered. Things keep looking up at times...then they just drop back down when something else happens. I hope she wants you as her boyfriend. I think that's something she would need; someone to be close to. I pray that things work out for the better. _______________ Wanna know what my name means? Peralos Ale'Velkyrii: Perilous Drunken Angel, or PDA for short. Perilous, because I'm bound to get into fights I can't win. Drunken, because ALE! Angel, because a valkyrie is basically an angel of Odin. I'm here to send you to the afterlife, but I can't gurantee I'll be stable enough to win a fight.
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Kueller - Student
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Ale, she has had terrible parents for years and her school is horrid too. She is a "aleternative" girl (just like I am "alternative" You know longhaired and such) and that's why she is not accepted as a member of this society. I have had my troubles with wanting to commit suicide, but I handled it (I've been bullied for 10 years non-stop) and I helped a lot ppl ever since. I think I can understand a bit of how she feels, but I can never understand the true scope of it. anyway, I don't know if she wants me as her boyfriend. I don't give a damn about that at this moment, at this moment I want to make sure she'll be a happy girl again who learns to look at the cool things in life instead of the bad ones. _______________ Personal sleepness-nights-supporter of Virtue. Owner of the 1000th comment of Daidalus and 1943th comment of Gradius! Owner of the 300th comment of Carda! -Taught Gradius all his laming skills
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Ale'Velkyrii - Student
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Hey, Kyp...I DON'T WANT TO COME BACK! lol. I've lived by this same town for my entire life. If I move away, I'll want to stay away forever. I don't like it here. Besides, I know I'll love Tennessee, but not JUST because of my girlfriend. I like bluffs and mountains, but where I live is entirely FLAT land. _______________ Wanna know what my name means? Peralos Ale'Velkyrii: Perilous Drunken Angel, or PDA for short. Perilous, because I'm bound to get into fights I can't win. Drunken, because ALE! Angel, because a valkyrie is basically an angel of Odin. I'm here to send you to the afterlife, but I can't gurantee I'll be stable enough to win a fight.
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Ale'Velkyrii - Student
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You scared the living hell out of me, Kueller. I thought for sure that she was dead...then I read the edit. and at the same time. Sorry that she decided that, but I'm happy you were able to convince her otherwise. I can only imagine the worry you felt. Try to keep her together. I don't know why she wants to kill herself, but I won't ask why either. If you want to tell us, that's fine. I believe in Hell, and I also believe that killing yourself will send you there...that's not exactly the way I want to go. One question...does this mean the week away from each other is over early? If so, I'm sure you're happy, but the cause is a real killer. Ok, that was a bad choice of words. lol... Keep her spirits up. And keep YOUR spirits up, because it's hard to keep people happy if you're not happy. _______________ Wanna know what my name means? Peralos Ale'Velkyrii: Perilous Drunken Angel, or PDA for short. Perilous, because I'm bound to get into fights I can't win. Drunken, because ALE! Angel, because a valkyrie is basically an angel of Odin. I'm here to send you to the afterlife, but I can't gurantee I'll be stable enough to win a fight.
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KypNadon(AFK) - Ex-Student 
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IDEA : get your girlfriend make some money and coma back. (it will take a few year...) _______________ CHICKEN |
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Er, what? _______________ JiM |
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Kueller - Student
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Today it's the grand finally. She has decided to commit suicide, I hope she won't be able to. I'm going to intercept her, pray for her ppl. I'm off to try to safe her. EDIT: I just came back, she wants to live again (for now). I'm the most happyiest person in the world _______________ Personal sleepness-nights-supporter of Virtue. Owner of the 1000th comment of Daidalus and 1943th comment of Gradius! Owner of the 300th comment of Carda! -Taught Gradius all his laming skills
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Ale'Velkyrii - Student
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On another note, things are progressing. I GOT MY DRIVERS PERMIT TODAY! w00t! YAY! ANOTHER...frickin' year... At least the timer has started counting down. T-minus 365 days and counting. ACK............... oh well _______________ Wanna know what my name means? Peralos Ale'Velkyrii: Perilous Drunken Angel, or PDA for short. Perilous, because I'm bound to get into fights I can't win. Drunken, because ALE! Angel, because a valkyrie is basically an angel of Odin. I'm here to send you to the afterlife, but I can't gurantee I'll be stable enough to win a fight.
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