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Dante Valmont - Retired  |
Flash, the fairy tale is over. I died 15 mintues ago. I died forever. I feel nothing in my heart, nothign in my soul. I feel deserted, useless and empty. I will feel like this forever..my heart is no more. I have a finally request. Delete my name from this site, delete any posts that mention my name, and delete any topics with me in them. Don't post me on the history blaze. I want to be forgotten, erased from history. I don't want to exist, like i don't know. Don't bother trying to contact me anyone, this is the last time i check this site. If you try to contact me, i will read what you wrote, and then block you. If i ever come on, it will be just to look at the names of old friends for a few moments. Remember today as the day Dante Valmont and Eric Stearns died. I hope all of you have more worth in your life than my pitiful existence. There is one last thing, i wish to say. I love you, Renee. _______________ "A teacher is one who makes himself progressively unnecessary" |
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Wolfwood - Student 
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Glad to have you back my friend  _______________ ~ Honor is a fool's prize. Glory is of no use to the dead ~ |
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Rogue - Student 
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That does take a huge weight of everyone shoulders, glad u got thinks right bro _______________ I was a child when I joined the JA...scary. |
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Ulic |retired| - Student 
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Welcome home _______________ Ceterum censeo Carthaginem esse delendam |
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Halendor - Ex-Student 
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Glad we were able to help |
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xAnAtOs - Student |
Good to have you back man, nice to see you're working out your problems. The ja is here for you, remember that. _______________ Brother to Luke Skywalker and (SKX) Dark Blade 
Lag Brother to Acey Spadey 
Jools is my best friend. 
<Henkes> nebody feeling like abusing me with a lightsaber?|+Smilykrazy grabs Gradius, beats the living CRAP out of him, then throws him into a huge vat of ACID |
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Fire - Student 
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Absolutely awesome Good to have you back Dante, we should hang out some time hehe Take care man. |
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Sauce - =^.^= 
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yay |
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Aron - Retired 
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Good to see you back, man. Honestly, I didn't even know you and renee were together IRC (I'm stupid, so that might be the cause).. All the pieces of the puzzle are falling in place now. Good to see that it is getting better again Keep working on it, it is worth it, one hundred percent. |
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skyler_ - Student 
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Well im glad that you worked your problems out man. Nice to know that your ok. Hope to see you soon dude, if you need anything just ask. Take care |
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Jaiko D'Kana - Student 
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Life is a long lesson in humility. James M. Barrie (1860 - 1937) Good to have you back Dante _______________ The greatest discovery of my generation is that a human being can alter his life by altering his attitudes of mind. William James (1842 - 1910) |
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Dante Valmont - Retired 
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I'm sorry for scaring everyone, and i must say it is quite inspiring from the overwhelming support Renee and I have received. This was not a suicide not, for I had already died, inside. Half of my soul was ripped away. I can't describe the tremendous pain I felt that day without Renee. There is a scar on my heart too deep for time to heal but I am coping with it. I may always seem like I am composed, like i know a lot of answers, and most of you were very shocked at how irrational of a post I could have made. Passion rules reason. My passion for renee rules every single stroke of logic or reason in my body. Without her, I am nothing. No matter how much you tell me otherwise, I am telling you, it won't sink in. I realize it was very selfish of me to shut myself out from the community and all of my friends here. But i wanted to be erased from history, like the nothing i had become. But Renee has seen the truth, as have I and it seems the fairy tale, flash, is only on the second chapter. Thank you for not listening to me and sending me emails bro. Thanks everyone who posted here and on my profile. I am indebted everyone, for the pain i've felt. I don't think anyone can understand what i'm feeling, since it is so ill conceived..but i thank you for bearing with me. I need to take some time to relax with Renee, and think. Maybe in a bit i'll contemplating coming back. Retirement isn't all its cracked up to be, and besides, it will end the bugging . This is truely a great community.. owe you all a lil something that is left in me. Forgive me if i still am gloomy sometimes, i can still feel the terrible fear and mark on my heart. Of course no Dante Valmont post would be complete without words of wisdom: In life, if the road your taking is easy, your likely going the wrong way. _______________ "A teacher is one who makes himself progressively unnecessary" |
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Nitram - Ex-Student 
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Well i don't know you m8 But you have wroten a sad but very nice writen goodbye, I wish you all goodluck in RL _______________ Please Lord forgive me, for I know now what I have done... |
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AngelD'Kana - Ex-Student 
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Dante your really scarring me with this post You are a GREAT person and an awesome duelist but i cant shake this really strange feeling im getting from this post  It sent a chill down my spine, I wish i knew what was going on through your head but i don't so at the risk of looking like a fool i have to say don't do anything rash or stupid, you have plenty to live for. if i missinterpreted your post then i apologize for that but i wouldnt be able to live with myself if i found out i was right and i hadnt said anything, i had to at least say something. And if i am right about the way your feeling then plz remember there are ALWAYS ups and downs but after a down the best way to look at it is the only way things can go from here is up So please post on my profile so i know ur ok and coping, im really worried _______________ SMILY RULES ALL AND SHE CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT Quote: Don't part with your illusions. When they are gone you may still exist, but you have ceased to live. - Mark Twain <Jedi_Prodigy> BOOOO angel! SEE SMILY? JP EVEN THINKS IM RIGHT I WIN 12:15:30(AM)] * DJ_Sith gives Jacen_Solo a golden shower }{ [01:33:00(AM)] * DJ_Sith give `orion a wonderful golden shower! }{ [01:35:41(AM)] * DJ_Sith gives doobie|broke a wonderful golden shower!
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Mitch - Student 
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Hey Dante, whatevers going on I hope it works out good in the end. I'll miss ya bud, thanks for all the great duels and advice...Hope we meet again... Mitch _______________ Power Preceived, is Power Acheived.' Brother to 3th, Janus, and Vlad. |
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Wolfwood - Student
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The reason for my late reply is that I realy did not know what to post here. Dante, I have said a lot to you already about 3 days ago on the server. You did not seem to be so depressed as you are now so I was sortof shocked when I first read this post. Anyway, I wanted to thank you for your dedication to Jedi Knight 3 and I wanted to thank you for your teachings (not only Jedi-knight 3 related stuff) I will surely miss you a lot. Now, I am going to say like everyone else, I dont know what is going on in your life right now. But letting stuff get to you like this, is not how its supposed to be. Life has its downs, heck sometimes its like falling into a pit with no end coming to it, but remember things cant go bad forever. Get your stuff sorted out, and you know where to find me if you need help. Take good care of yourself my friend.... _______________ ~ Honor is a fool's prize. Glory is of no use to the dead ~ |
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Hardwired - Retired 
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Dunno whats been up in your life. And i can't say that I know you. But one thing I know for sure. There is no problem that calls for a solution of which the likes (I think) You are talking about... Hang in there man. Life can really get you down sometimes. But just keep on trucking and you'll be fine.... _______________ ::Nothing wrong with a little shooting.....as long as the right people get shot:: |
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Thomasooo - Student 
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Well, I wish you good luck in getting back on your feet again, Dante. Try to think of the positivities in life, like love, fun and happiness. Life is a constant challenge, which only the bravest manage to get through. Don't you wanna be one of the brave guys? God speed... _______________ In the navy and LOVING it!
Recipient of comment no. 1000 and heart-warming words from Ataris!
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Steady now guys, don't compliment Dante, he'll cry for a fortnight.  Seriously though, don't worry about this. He's been given an overdue stiff kick up the arse, and he will be back, and we'll all be here to welcome him. |
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Halendor - Ex-Student 
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Let's not throw mud at eachother guys, you aren't running for president of America  |
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DaRtH-MoBiLiTy - Student 
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I agree with Montee, but i would say, "sounds like your not making rash decisions bud" -DM- _______________ One Day, it will all end. This comment was edited by DaRtH-MoBiLiTy on Apr 22 2004 08:05pm. |
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Lancer007 - Student 
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Dante I also think you shouldn't request the deletion of your handle and your posts Because That would be totally unethical and wrong also I think your making a huge mistake. Jaikos right though. |
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Jaiko D'Kana - Student
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Dante, Undernormal circumstances id say the chance of you reading this are slim, but i think i know you better than that. I dont claim to know what your going through but as ive said you know where i am if you need to talk to someone.Remember your a great man and you will be missed by many especially myself.... Other than that i wish you a long and eventually happy life my friend, and i hope that someday our paths will cross again. plz keep in touch..... -JaikoD'Kana- -Chris- _______________ The greatest discovery of my generation is that a human being can alter his life by altering his attitudes of mind. William James (1842 - 1910) |
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Monteeeeeee - Nugget 
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From wot i read u sound like a complete Dickhead to be honest, blocking your friends is just pissing stupid........ _______________ If you add me to MSN, tell me who you are
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Setementor - Jedi Master 
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WTF. Quote: never make a permenant solution for a temporary problem. lmao. ------ I don't get this and I really don't get your point. Your dead? So how did you post? This is such a mixed up speech. But really, here are some quotes which cover more or less what I would have said. Quote: i'm speechless... Quote: i can't believe this.. Quote: Dante, life is hard, and I know it as a lot of the ppl in the Academy know it. But life is about choices and living with those choices. There is always a choice, even to go on after a huge loss or terrible setback in your life. There will always be people to help you with the choice you make, but the choice must be yours. Now I'm not going to say what choice you should make, because that's entirely up to you, and only you will know what really happened. I just want you to think about the consequences of your choice, one, leaving this community and trying to start over, hence bottling your feeling up deep inside you, where they will always stay until they come out. I have made this choice once, and I know how much it hurt, so I came back, faced my sadness, cried and was sick for 1 week, but after that, the healing could begin. If you choose to run, the healing will not begin, you will only slide it in your subconsious mind where it will fester and eat you up completely. Please, allow people to help you with your problem, it doesn't have to be the JA if you don't want it, but allow ppl to help you, because we're all here on earth to help eachother and make our lives more valueble. Know that I respect you deeply whatever the choice, and will remember you dearly. Good luck. Quote: ....... This comment was edited by Setementor on Apr 22 2004 05:24pm. |
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DaRtH-MoBiLiTy - Student 
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....... _______________ One Day, it will all end. |
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