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ZOMG i remember this!
lol

But yeah...it's not the easiest trying to return ya know. I've tried quite a few times.
See thing is, there are reasons why you leave in the 1st place, and over periods of time we tend to forget what those are.

In some cases, we even try and ignore what the reason is, fully knowing it. Sometimes, it just doesn't work very well.

In my case, i don't think ill ever be what i used to be years ago. I was much more dedicated, had more free time to use. More motivated and driven to be the best that I could be.

I became respected for my talents in game, but talent only goes so far. Vets know this.
It's really all about the persons take on how they play the game.

You win some, lose some. You really should take each loss as a slight learning experience. Though i can say from moments in the past that its not always the case...

I remember always fighting and fighting, only to want to fight more. It became a nice way to be motivated but i quickly learned that if i didn't handle loss the right way, it could become more of an unpleasant thing.

At a certain point of the game, when you become established enough to say you've mastered it, (for the most part anyway, lol) you find that there are others like you that may not exactly see things the way you do.

Ego's somehow get tossed into the mix.
You look back at how much time you've put into being what you are, only to be defeated by someone who obviously has some sort of edge over you. That isn't necessarily a bad thing. It's reality.

What makes it a bad thing is how you take the loss. Sometimes, the person that ends up defeating you might even take it to another level. Like really rubbing it in, to make you angry.

I remember making it my #1 goal, to shut the mouths of every trash talker that i encountered. For the most part, honestly i'd have to say i did. I proved to each and every one of them, that there was no such thing as "The Best" lol.
Because in reality, there is Always..someone better. It's the individual that needs to realize it and play for fun, and not so much to win.

Eventually, i lost my interest in the game. My time devoted into it wasn't quite the same anymore. My skill level remained at a constant level, however you had others that put in their time and effort into becoming better players.

I started to see that losses , became a lot more frequent than before. At that point i had to accept that i had no real reason to pursue getting even better than i was.
I had accomplished what i wanted, faced quite a few duelists. Had my fun.
I also noticed that the community had changed, (not just the ja) no longer did i see the frequent trash talker making abusive comments.
Playing for fun was all i really wanted to do, and even then i found i just wasn't having the same fun as i used to.

So returning, pretty much becomes a few questions to answer.

What is your motivation?
Is it playing for fun?
playing to help someone else in game?
to share knowledge with others?
unfinished business?


When you find what it is that you'd return for, you'd have to stick with it.

Unfortunately, for myself, i dont have much of a reason to anymore. Nor could i if i wanted, a lot of factors play into it.

That doesn't speak for the future though, if the situation ever called for it, i just might return. Though it'd have to be a really important reason. Enough for me to stick with it for good.

I may be a very specific case, but im almost certain that others like myself, can relate to what i've just explained in some way.

PS: For those that re-enter the scene for nostalgia, they quickly find that its done and over with not long after. Even for me, the experience is limited. I'd get the whole "zomg its lrod the legend" thing, which is nice and all.
But even i kinda wonder at times why im even considered to be a legend.

Legend or not one shouldn't attempt a return soley based on that, i guess you could say that fire or passion within you would have to awaken somehow again...